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it's been a while since i did my last blog. many things happened, some are good but most of them are not. there's no week that i encounter no problem and i've been struggling this past few weeks due to emotional anxiety. it has been for many months that i wanted to buy my nikon camera but seems that faith won't allow me to have that camera at this time for some reasons. faith seems to get hold of my finances at this times. christamas is nearly comin and i should have had purchased my plane ticket back home already but then again for some financial reasons i wasn't able to and now the price of the tickets are goin higher. if only they pay me i shoud have bought my nikon camera and plane ticket already. 4 years already that i haven't spent christmas with my family. thinking about it is really frustrating. well all i can do for now is wait and hopefuly i get paid and have my nikon and have my vacation home.

hope i can get back to sleep after this. 2 consecutive days with only 3 hours of sleep ang working on night shift.